Yesterday, we talked about wishful thinking. My definion? "Thinking an effect will or could happen without a cause."
Right away, you might realize some wishful thoughts you have. "I want to lose weight," but you're not changing your diet.
But probably the easiest short-term gain is in identifying something that regularly fails to achieve your desired outcome, but you keep doing it out of wishful thinking.
For me, depending on my sleep schedule and diet, there tend to be certain times of the day that I'm dead useless to do any work unless I make special preparations. Yet, sometimes I'll keep trying to work during those periods and get not a damn thing done, while burning myself out in the process.
I've been trying to recognize that, and replace those times with things like:
1. A meeting for a coffee with someone I want to catch up with, where I don't have to be particularly sharp,
2. Totally abstract brainstorming in front of a whiteboard with no other materials (maybe paper, certainly not internet access), to just see if I come up with anything,
3. Lifting weights or going for a swim first, after which I can usually do good work.
But I've gone through periods of weeks, even months, of doing the same stupid routine of trying to grind through sections of the day without a workable gameplan, hoping -- wishing -- that things will go well, knowing damn well that they won't.
Want a huge life gain right now? Sit and think about your last few weeks. I bet there's something you keep repeating that's not producing the desired result. How you could tweak it to do better? Really think on this, do it, it can be huge for killing frustrating off and producing more results.
Right now I feel ok with my "useless" times of the day. It means I sit on the couch and cuddle my little kids. They think it is great.
I'm struggling with the fact that my best writing/working time is my best running time. I can't do them at the same time. Picking is quite hard. I either feel mad at myself for not running (I'm training for a marathon) or I feel frustrated that I wish I got to write more.
From what I know the best path to take to be a morning person is simply to kill all lights 1-2 hours before going to sleep and to eat proteins first thing in the morning. Works for me. Normally I am a constant 10pmto6am sleeper. Lately been sleeping more but those were naps and due to circonstances.
My mind has been scrambled the last couple days. I don't know why, it came on very suddenly. I've made massive strides over the two weeks before - I accomplished about six months worth of work over two weeks. I felt on top of the world. I wasn't even very tired afterwards, I felt good, ready to go.
Then yesterday, just bzzt - nothing. Foggy, almost like confusion. Couldn't focus at all. Strange. I said, y'know what? I haven't had a day off in a while, I'm just going to take the day off. Went and sat at a cafe and listened to some audio for about four hours, walked around and saw the city, went and had a massage, and then sat and ate fruit. Spend like 10 hours in a row just thinking and relaxing, which is good, I don't take full days off very often. I had some good ideas when I was out at the cafe and took some extensive notes, so I got some production out of it too without even trying to.
Now, I wish I could say, "And then I was recharged, and today I was awesome!" But no, I woke up in a fog again. Damn this. I track my time and have some routines to keep me running well, but I was foggy despite it, unable to focus really. Suck, what is this?
I was working, but it was half-working. Now, half-working is a big problem in my opinion. Half-working tires you out as much or more than real full working, but you get about 5% as much stuff done. Yes, 5%. Good work requires something like focus. It doesn't necessarily require the highest levels of focus and flow (though that stuff is very good), but it requires working through the mentally difficult parts when they come up. The worst part about half-work is you cruise through the easy enough stuff, then stumble on a difficult part.
This is doubly bad, because when you come back to your work, you're staring the hardest part in the face. This sucks, you need to kind of regroup and double down to get re-started while staring a difficult or complex part of work in the face. But again, I was in that mental fog and so I start half-working on it, and then I wander off again. And I try to come back to the work, but then - bam, there's this hard problem staring me right in the face, that I already failed to conquer twice.
So today while at work i started to think more about what I wanted to do with this blog space. I started to think that maybe a blog about me working out, losing weight, not drinking, and what not may not be that intersting. At least not every day. So I started to think about what other things i can do with this real estate. I recently took part in this musical challenge to compose, record, mix and release a 10 song album all in the month of Febraury. For the most part i suceeded in doing that, i have 10 completed songs i didn't have three weeks ago. But the toughest part of the project was coming up with lyrics to the songs. The main reason for that was I rarely ever write lyrics, so I'm not good at it. What I've been learning by doing the 750 Words writing exercises everyday is that you need to keep writing to get better at writing. I know, pretty damn obvious. So I'm toying with the idea of writing a poem everyday and publishing it on here. I got the idea from this page here:
She liked one of my first post on Word Press, so i fallowed her, and liked the idea she's going for.
Now I'm not a poetry kind of person at all. I've written some stuff over the years i suppose you could lable as poetry. Besides a Charlse Bukowski book and some Edgar Allen Poe, I've never bothered reading poetry, never been to poetry slam, and have never had any interst in it. So what makes me think I can even attempt a challenge like this? I've no effin' clue. But I figured it's something way out of my comfort zone, so that should be a good challenge. Plus I may actually write some stuff that will fit some of the music I'm writing.
I'm thinking of starting small, like just trying to write a poem a day just in the month of March, and see whether it's a success or failure. If I find it's something i enjoy, I'll see how far i can keep it going.