Nice narrative, better still a wonderful writeup. I think only great minds can comprehend this write-up. If you have never tried to do stuffs before, push life a little bit harder then you might not be able to comprehend this feeling. Reading this, brought me to "little-drops of tears". This is because I just started trying to do stuffs and create more money-making avenues for myself and I had just read someone put all my entire feelings into writing. Needsay, sebastian you need to hit-hard on what the little successes do entirely in confronting this fears. Getting a call after distributing 500 fliers, getting someone that's interested after sending like 300 emails etc...all these are essential in pushing you further and in helping you convince yourself that maybe "You will enventually be understood".
People that think like you are a rare bunch (as I have always said).
Your ardent fan from Nigeria,