It's nice being over-bandwidth, because things come into clear perspective.
Our new office is live on Monday, I've got to be there and start training some of the staff we've got coming onboard.
So my other two major projects need to be deathmarched to a sustainable state for my involvement to fall off a lot after Monday.
Perspective... a little bit of smoke is wafting in the room. Normally I'd go, "Ahh, a fire!" and I'd run to put it out.
But it's a little trash fire. We've got a whole inferno a few miles away. Can't see it, can't smell it, but it'll overtake and destroy many important things if not handled.
So someone says, "There's a fire! We've got to put it out!" Well, my friend, that's just a trash fire. We've got infernos to deal with.
"It's a FIRE!"
"Sure. I get it. But we've got 24 hours per day. I've got to go fuel up some fire-fighting airplanes, the ones that drop chemicals on huge blazes. And I've got to put together an engineering corps to dig some firebreaks away from the current area of the blaze. And we've got to get medical stations set up to take care of all of our people, and make sure our provisions are in order."
"But there's a FIRE!"
"Indeed. Let it burn. We've got important things to do."
September 11th, 2012. Taipei, Taiwan. Dante Coffee in Guting. 8:34AM
My inbox. Oh, I don't really like that subject line. Well, click it --
I hate to push back yet again, but I can hardly get anything done right now. Let me finish UI + client project first.
Also, my concentration is complete shit. This money thing still fucks me up.
And then, epiphany strikes, the lights come on, the darkness recedes, and all is clear.
Two weeks ago I lost my part-time job. My contract was due an extension, but I wasn't offered one. Instead the company chose to hire someone else the same month they let me go. They said I wasn't fired, but it's hard to use any other word for this.
I asked them if it had anything to do with my performance. They said that my performance was great. Indeed, I worked harder than most other people in the company. Including my boss.
I asked them if it had anything to do with my personality. They said of course not. I'm not so sure about that.
Then I asked if there was anything at all that made them choose someone else instead of me. They avoided the question.
I don't think they were just throwing dice when deciding who was getting fired and hired. So I pointed that out. That kind of pissed them off.