I've read no less than 20 books on Bi Polar and the DSM IV.
My brother too is Bi Polar and tells me there is no greater high than feeling or thinking you're godlike or have the spirit of god in you...
You are a hurt being who can't put a few sentences together with coherency or a dash of selfless brevity.
You are textbook crazy (although you'll be the last to know) and just now waking up to see that Corporations run the world and do not give a fuck about 'artists' - again, a textbook realization for someone your age.... as is your illness.
S&S treats you like an object because they own the business.. go make your own and stop bitching like a baby girl.
They made their business and had the balls, gumption, moxie, knowledge, money, time, effort to make it a global multi-billion dollar entity. There's millions who want to write; there are very few who want to run a real business. Leaders and followers..
The irony is both you and I'd say 75% of CEOs are self-centered, megalomaniac and egotistical twats. Don't kill yourself accidentally and you'll probably be successful.. either that or living in a box...shirtless.