I'm going to start working out and eating right, I just need to read all these websites on training & nutrition first.
I'm going to work on my coding project, I just need to close down all these tabs first.
I'm going to call my dad more, I just need less stress in my life first.
I'm going to approach more women, I just need to read more about inner game first.
I'm going to study for my exam, I just need to reorganize my desk first.
By putting Y before X, we are stalling and not getting momentum. There are some cases where preparatory action is actually warranted, but most situations aren't like that.
What would happen if we turned these around?
I'm going to start working out and eating right, and I will do research as I get more momentum.
I'm going to work on my coding project now, and then I can read Reddit in the glow of victory.
I'm going to call my dad right now, and that will make it more likely that I call him again tomorrow regardless of my stress level.
I'm going to say something to a girl, and that will give me reference experiences that I can hook up to inner game theory later.
I'm going to study for my exam right now, my desk won't bother me nearly as much after I get through some pages.
We get momentum, AND whatever was bothering us will seem easier. All it takes is a few minutes of mild pain as we force our brain to focus.
Oh btw, here's a crazy thought: what if all those evasive "I have to do this first" actions are actually a form of cognitive pica? What if your mind is telling you to do Y but what it really wants is for you to do X. Think about it...
What's cyclothymia? It's a mild form of the docs used to call "manic-depression," but which they re-name periodically. Cyclothymics can actually function decently well, and as such often don't know they've got it. If you cycle through highs and lows, are particularly artistic, or that describes someone you love, then read this post in full and please comment with your own experience. I'm still learning, myself.
AN INTRODUCTION TO CYCLOTHYMIA
Knowing the term "Cyclothymia" would have been very helpful to me a few years ago. This essay is plain English and, if I've done a good job, might help people who associate with a cyclothymic relate better to them, and might help a cyclothymic manage themselves better and produce better.
I'm against the "medical-ization" of life. We need medical terms, but we need to be able to explain things in plain English without labeling. Labeling, by definition, drastically simplifies.
Cyclothymia is simple at its roots, simple enough for a plain discussion without medicalization. Here's how it works for me -
So sorry for my absence. My life has been so hard and exhausting lately. Prepare for a long post cause this is gonna be a huge one! I have had exams all day, everyday. I've had to study every single night of the week and between taking a shower, eating and maybe getting a few minutes to relax, i haven't had the time to write. I miss it. This is like my diary and not being able to write in it, makes me feel restricted.
A lot has happened in the last 3-4 days. With the girls for instance. Me and Jordan have exchanged certain funny faces. Yesterday ( Wednesday ), we had a social studies exam in the afternoon. We had 30 minutes to read, study, draw or whatever. I decided to draw what was on my pencil case. On my pencil case, there is a mascara, lipstick and it says " lips and eyes ". I drew it and when i finished my exam 30 minutes early, i wrote " Makeup buddy forever, have a nice summer!". I then gave it to Isabella. Me and Emiline talked on facebook and it was cool. I had posted so many random videos on instagram that night, she actually complimented me on them and said i was funny. I finally made peace with the girls and now were friends. I met new people and am having so much fun with them.
Finn and i are friends. I don't have a crush on him anymore because, i know how to stop. I just need to put something more important then my feelings in front of love and i'm over it the next day. I still want to be his friend and we might even hang out this summer. Wednesday, at lunchtime, i walked around with my friend named Vick. He took me to the nerd hangout at school and it's called the subway. It's basically a place where nerds eat lunch and play games. There's pool, air hockey, foosball and some other game. I learned how to play pool and turned out to be really good at it! Vick wasn't very good when he started but i thought he was damn talented! Ever since i left the girls, I've made more friends, played sports, laughed and enjoyed myself in a new and different way. Maybe an even better way.
I have one day left of school and i can't wait for summer! I am planning on trying to eliminate some weight and go to Florida. Did i mention i was born in Florida? Well i am. School has been exhausting this past week. The worst day was Tuesday. I had a math and science exam. I hate science and math. For some unknown reason, i don't get why i should be learning all this crap. Teach me how to add and multiply but the rest, i don't care. I don't really have a choice though. I have to learn this shit to get a diploma. School has become so pressuring and fake. It used to be a privilege to go to school and now all we want to do, is get away from it. Today, i had no school and i went to see my math tutor. We laughed while we were waiting for my mom. We talked about summer and how my parents annoy me. I need to get away. That's why i can't wait to go visit my family.
Tomorrow, i have a math exam and an English one. I wish i could miss the English one but i have to do it. I'm bilingual so, it should take me no time. I've been alone a couple times ever since the girls. I don't always have to be with someone. Being alone isn't a bad thing, it's a choice. When you ask for something in life, if you promise something in return, it'll happen. One night when me and the girls were still fighting, i asked to get the answer. To find friends and find myself in the right place. The next day, Finn came to see me and i found my spot. Today, i was suppose to do something with my friend John but, i don't think it'll happen.