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Steel on the Inside, Silk on the Outside

Two days ago I took a very hot bath. The place I'm staying has a large bathtub, and I sunk slowly into the scalding hot water, and thought. My mind moved this way and that way, drifting around, and I had some good ideas. I opened my eyes and got down to the details of the bath itself.

I scrubbed the dead skin off hard with soap, got out, dried off, and put on lotion, as described in "adding good skin at age 100 to goals."

This is not uncommon for me. I wrote in "Daydreaming" that my mind was wrecked, so I went to get a massage at a spa with essential oils, and then drank green tea and ate ginger.

I'm wearing light colors - sky blue, white, purple are among my favorite. I'll wear silks and cotton. I believe in being polite, friendly, maybe even a little lighthearted when with people most of the time. I don't take myself too seriously.

I think most guys are afraid to do this - to wear light colors, to go to a spa, to being silly and lighthearted, these traditionally feminine things. I think most guys go out of their way to appear tough, rugged, macho. And you know why? I think it's because most of 'em are soft on the inside, scared, powerless, aimless.

On to a new project

On The Ramblings of Me

So the free writing thing I completed successfully enough. I did 5 days instead of 7 days, but to be fair, I don't really count my weekends in my week..so 5 days seems alright to me. My next project for this blog is weight loss. I don't own a scale, but the last time I weighed myself (probably a couple weeks ago) I was 140 pounds I believe. My goal is to drop at least 30 pounds, putting me around 110. I am starting a new weight loss plan that I plan to keep up with for a long time. I made it simple enough that it can be a lifestyle and not a "diet". because diets end and lifestyles keep you healthy.

First of all, I needed to figure out my food diet. I love food and I honestly don't want to give up a bunch of yummy foods because I know myself pretty well and if I don't let myself have something, I'll get angry at myself eventually and stuff a bunch of that untouchable food down my throat just to show myself that I can't boss myself around. So I started Googling ways to eat healthy and not give up the foods you like, and what I stumbled across was this blog post by Eleanor Harding entitled "Eat vegan all day then dinner is guilt-free, says writer who claims 'common sense' diet saved him from diabetes" where she talks about Mark Bittman who started eating vegan all day before 6pm and then let himself eat whatever he wanted for dinner. This plan has worked for his health, and I am hoping that it will work for mine. Here's a link to that blog post if you'd like to check it out: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-2414653/Eat-vegan-day-dinner-guilt-free-says-writer-claims-common-sense-diet-saved-diabetes.html

So my food diet will be vegan before 6pm. I know I can do that and I look forward to it. The next part of the weight loss plan is exercise. I have never really been into exercising but I've always wanted to be into it. This morning I watched a video by this sweet, beautiful blonde girl that calls herself MissPinkMeltsAway on YouTube. This is the video I watched:

After watching that video I watched her video showing the progression of her weight loss over that time and at the very end you see how her body looks now and she is simply stunning. She was already stunning with the weight on her so when the weight came off it was crazy how wonderful she looked! Her videos inspired me to get serious about working out. Everyone else has to do it. There's no easy way out of being obese (which according to my BMI I am), and I'm sick of just waiting for some miracle weight loss discovery to happen. I need to take action. So after watching this girl's videos I searched YouTube for a good workout video and this is what I found:

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